It's been some time that I've visited the forums, which is because I was busy with school...and illustration. Yes, I've graduated in Illustration in July 2011. Since then I've done some small illustration jobs and I have been working with some cool guys to develop games (unpaid and next to a side-job though..). However, as almost any recent graduate illustrator I have a hard time finding illustration jobs and I'm still developing 'my' style. I don't know what I like to do best and I'm trying out things.
So, just when I was planning to make some illustrations of childrens, because, that's what I lack in my portfolio when I want to work for children's books publishers....I asked myself: is this really what I want to do?
I like illustrating stories, I have plans of creating books but the books would be about two things: cool fantasy-like animal characters or a lot of environmental (fantasy) art. And I concluded that I'm still (yeah, I've had a pause with concept art because while I was looking for an internship nobody was interested and I was told I wasn't good enough) interested in concept art. Last month I bought some artbooks of Tangled and Kung Fu Panda and I've just realized that....I think...what I really would like to do is creating environments and characters and illustrate scenes with a lot of color and atmosphere.
I'm in between illustration and concept art, in the sense that I like cartoony-and-cute style characters, not the realistic type thing (though I know that the real world is the best inspiration and learning source). I love environments, I'd love to make more environmental art....
but I don't know what to do at the moment. If I take my time and drown myself in concept art (again?) I won't have time for illustration jobs anymore...and I'm afraid that I'll never be good enough. There are SO MANY people out there that create amazing things...
And where would I get jobs? We don't have big animation studios in the Netherlands I think, we do have game companies, but I have the feeling they only like game art students instead of illustration students.
Is there a possibility to do both? Should I follow my heart and get into concept art again with the chance of losing my illustrational dreams too...or worse..lose both when I never get good enough?
I find it hard to make a decision, any help is welcome!