What made you depressed today?

[LORD M]

A friend of mine showed me this song from the LOTR soundtrack, it played at the end of the movie when most people had gone. It's so beautifull and yet so sad. This and hearing an old relative turned sick made me sad today.

[vampire cervix]

What got me depressed?

The crystal clear knowledge that once i die, everything i ever did, said, thought, etc... will be completely and permanently erased and irrelevant. And even if i leave something behind, no matter how "important" it is, it too will eventually be pounded into dust.

[Costau]

How is that depressing? I find humor in that.

[LORD M]

How is that depressing? I find humor in that.

A tragic comedy.

[vampire cervix]

What got me depressed?

The crystal clear knowledge that once i die, everything i ever did, said, thought, etc... will be completely and permanently erased and irrelevant. And even if i leave something behind, no matter how "important" it is, it too will eventually be pounded into dust.

And just in case that seems too far fetched or your brain is refusing to really think about that idea in order to protect itself, here are some random "bite sized" depressing things:

-The history of mankind is composed mainly of wars, or rather war seems to be thing that people put the most effort into. It's literally the only time that groups of hundreds of thousands of people actually worked together and really achieved something. It's by far the number one thing people consciously give their lives for.

-If you have no money, no job, no home, no skills, no family and no friends, chances are that with minimal training you would survive longer alone in the wild than on the streets, among other human beings.

-If some guys wanted to break into your house in broad daylight to rob you and beat you to death they could do it without too much trouble.

-People that want to help you can't and people who can help you won't.

-The existence or hundreds of creative torture methods, homeless people getting beaten, child abuse, prisons, people killing each other for decades over who's made up god is better, skinned foxes left alive...all prove that humans are evil.

[FearSelf]

There was one field in which man was unsurpassed; he showed unlimited ingenuity in devising bigger and more efficient ways to kill off, enslave, harass, and in all ways make an unbearable nuisance of himself to himself. Man was his grimmest joke on himself. The very bedrock of humor was--
"Man is the animal that laughs." Jubal answered.

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[aaronblack]

@ Jason Rainville in post #8

Grreat video there mate. Its one of my favorites. And an advice to people who pity themselves, Do not do that !! Get of your lame asses , take a walk to someplace and make it a point to see someone who is in dire need of help than you do whenever you feel down. Help him/her and feel good abt it.

And what turned me off today = nothing yet !!

[velderia]

And if it gets really shitty, go see a counselor/psychologist or whatever. It's what they do for a living and they can help.

My mom wasted so much money on a psychologist during a few months several years back. It was baffling. I haven't heard many stories where people got better from a psychologist, but I have heard a lot of stories where people find that they are better off without one.

And god forbid that you go see a doctor just so they can put you on a happy pill.

[Crane]

...realising, I'm not as good an artist as I thought I was..
My envy of friends who have made it;
The loss of my 8yr relationship, which in turn -has made me homeless;
I've lost my current studio -because I cant find a decent paid job in my field to fund it, (and because London is fucking extortionate)
Lack of someone to talk to; Lack of guidance and inspiration (and I cant afford the live streaming classes on offer)
Everything really...

Now, is that depressing enough or wot...

:'( You can come live with me if you like, i owe you that much for kick starting me into the whole ca.org etc scene. and for just being awesome.
its Tony btw, hai.

[tobbA]

What got me depressed?

The crystal clear knowledge that once i die, everything i ever did, said, thought, etc... will be completely and permanently erased and irrelevant. And even if i leave something behind, no matter how "important" it is, it too will eventually be pounded into dust.

First of all. It won't dissappear. Your existance is affecting the future no matter what you do. Do good things, and good things will come out of it. Even if it's just a little you're still contributing. Also, when you die, you will still live on through others. Other people will have memories of you. Your genes will be carried on by your children. There are even scientists that believe that the memories of our forefathers experiences are stored in our DNA. And also, why should you care? You'll be dead anyway. It's now that you're alive. Try to focus on that instead.

-The history of mankind is composed mainly of wars, or rather war seems to be thing that people put the most effort into. It's literally the only time that groups of hundreds of thousands of people actually worked together and really achieved something. It's by far the number one thing people consciously give their lives for.

That's why it's important to work to change that. Wars are still occuring all over the world. But isn't it amazing that the entirety of Europe, where everyone's been at each others throats for millenia, finally have made a lasting peace?

-If you have no money, no job, no home, no skills, no family and no friends, chances are that with minimal training you would survive longer alone in the wild than on the streets, among other human beings.

Totally depends on what country you're living in. And in any case there's allways a chance things'll turn to shit. Your harvest can fail or there could be a bad winter or terrible draft that leaves plants and animals starving, so that you can't get the food you need either.

-If some guys wanted to break into your house in broad daylight to rob you and beat you to death they could do it without too much trouble.

Except they'd probably be caught by the police and go to prison for it.

-People that want to help you can't and people who can help you won't.

That's not true.

-The existence or hundreds of creative torture methods, homeless people getting beaten, child abuse, prisons, people killing each other for decades over who's made up god is better, skinned foxes left alive...all prove that humans are evil.

Some people are bad. Some people are good. Life is a series of ups and downs. You'll just have to deal with it. Nothing's ever perfect. But we can allways try to make it better.

[OldJake666]

A friend of mine showed me this song from the LOTR soundtrack, it played at the end of the movie when most people had gone. It's so beautifull and yet so sad.

Add some record fuzz and some organic beats and you have your average Portishead song hahaha That was really cool actually, thanks. LotR has one of the best soundtracks of all time.

[OldJake666]

I just wanted to say that I allowed October to be a month of some significance, one that I would I observe more closely... At the end of this month I can firmly state that things are not looking up but rather the contrary...

I don't know what to do as of this point, but I want November to be different.

[kelly x]

Sorry Jake!! Ask your father for a recommendation of someone to see. People should not be this depressed!! Now I say see someone right away, I'm worried by this statement.

[crossmirage]

It's better to rant than to bottle things up.

Try taking self defense classes? Those help with your confidence a lot. And hey, you get to kick ass too.

As for what's making me feel shitty, not much besides the usual "no job, no IRL friends, I don't draw well enough, blah blah blah"

[Oden]

-If you have no money, no job, no home, no skills, no family and no friends, chances are that with minimal training you would survive longer alone in the wild than on the streets, among other human beings.

dude, you'd be toast..with no skills and minimal training?? You wouldn't last long in the "wild" at all.

You could make a better go of it dumpster diving and panhandling than you could trying to figure out which plants to eat, how to start a fire, how to hunt, etc.

on the other hand, with a LOT of training and a few basic supplies, your life in the wild could be much more pleasant than on the streets.

[Irishdrunk]

Try taking self defense classes? Those help with your confidence a lot. And hey, you get to kick ass too.

I have to say, learning self defense karate at a very young age (like 12 or something), really boosted my confidence. That I still carry on my chest today.

With just a little knowledge, the dark alleys seem a bit brighter.

[Diar]

As much I want to learn how to draw. Stupid headaches are there to prevent me from doing so. Its been going on for a whole week now. I'm not thinking too hard or anything. I just try to learn from copying the examples found in Loomis and Bridgmen anatomy books, but there is the stupid headache that stops me. The strangest thing is that when I draw doodles in my sketchbook the headache is not there anymore.

[alesoun]

Expectations are always a downer; but when life takes you by surprise? That's a different matter...

[Jovian M]

I just wanted to say that I allowed October to be a month of some significance, one that I would I observe more closely... At the end of this month I can firmly state that things are not looking up but rather the contrary...

I don't know what to do as of this point, but I want November to be different.

Just be the best Jake Kobrin you can be. Be yourself. Do the things you like to. You'll find your groove. A funky groove to live to.

[KonnA]

Myself. Always myself.

[Muz]

not having anyone to go out drinking with on Halloween

[PxelSlayer]

Fact that I have 1 year and 9 months to get really, really, REALLY good, or I`ll end up working on some dead-end job that will suck out my life/youth/soul and I`ll never pick up a pencil again...Good luck with that one...

[NR43]

the news... damn why do I watch that anyway... it's always bad news...

[OldJake666]

not having anyone to go out drinking with on Halloween

Join the club...

[Ian Barker]

I didn't have any friends in high school either. Now I'm in college, which forces you to be more self reliant and forces you to interact. I'm still a pretty quiet guy and a little bit anxious, but I've made incredible progress. If you could do that to yourself during highschool that would be great, but otherwise know that better situations are on the way if you are open to them. Highschool is the worst part of life, just try to make it through that.

Also try listening to better music! I was completely obsessed with Radiohead during highschool, which was not a good thing for my state of mind seeing as I was already lonely and depressed. Since then though I've started listening to more uplifting music and it's made a world of difference... these days it's all about Animal Collective and Flaming Lips and celebratory stuff like that (as great as Radiohead is, I can't even listen to stuff like How to Disappear Completely anymore). Metal is probably not the most helpful thing you could be listening to... I'm not saying you should give it up entirely (I still listen to my fair share of dark music, but I balance it out), but I'll bet that a lot of the stuff you're exposing yourself to is just multiplying the depression you already have.

Also take everyone's advice and work out again! It sucks for the first week or two, but after a while you'll start feeling good about yourself, and that frame of mind will help you out socially.

[Jason Rainville]

Self portrait day is back and I really don't want to bother, yet feel for some reason that I should do it. Mreh.

[Nibras]

I've only read the first two page of this thread but I gotta say it's an amazing eye opener.
I know Jake started it on a bad note but it's really great what some of the people have posted about.

What I find so amazing and seeing how so many of the people on CA have this really great depth and understanding. Slash and Randis for example just to name a few gave some really great advice which I think we can all learn from; depressed or not.

[TASmith]

The following clips on youtube make my son cry uncontrollably, for at least a half hour, even to the point of vomiting. Each time I discover one of these new "frightening" clips, I wonder if there's something seriously wrong with him. He's getting towards three and still doesn't speak. I know I shouldn't worry yet, but I'm his parent so I do...





With this one he's scared when Grover falls. He thinks Grover died or something.

[Dorkthrone]

Self portrait day is back and I really don't want to bother, yet feel for some reason that I should do it. Mreh.

Do it. It's so worth it. I am terrible at portraits and I tried it.

[OldJake666]

Also try listening to better music! I was completely obsessed with Radiohead during highschool, which was not a good thing for my state of mind seeing as I was already lonely and depressed. Since then though I've started listening to more uplifting music and it's made a world of difference... these days it's all about Animal Collective and Flaming Lips and celebratory stuff like that (as great as Radiohead is, I can't even listen to stuff like How to Disappear Completely anymore). Metal is probably not the most helpful thing you could be listening to... I'm not saying you should give it up entirely (I still listen to my fair share of dark music, but I balance it out), but I'll bet that a lot of the stuff you're exposing yourself to is just multiplying the depression you already have.

Excuse me, and this does not apply only to you, but I absolutely LOATH when people criticize my musical taste. It's always incredibly ironic or at the least very ignorant because I have VERY (almost schizo-like) eclectic taste in music. My listening palette isn't even close to entirely dark music. Seeing how Sigur Ros is my second or third favorite band and Takk... is like the happiest album ever made I guess you can get the gist of what I mean...

Please leave my musical tastes alone because music is a much more sacred thing for me than I believe you could understand. It's not entertainment, it's a life force...