DefiledVisions Sketchbook 2.0 | Back to the basics | apr15

[Baconstrap]

DawagonPoRn

[nim]

man I'm feeling the competition! let's knock each other's teeth out on this! (check my sb (in 30 sec))

[ezekrialase]

Very good work here, I like your perspective studies as well as the little dragon sketches! Keep up the hard work

[Odayga]

Yo! I havent spoken to you in forever, howre things going for you!? Your dragon sketches keep on rockin btw, keep it up!!!

[lionheartGFX]

hey those are some nice looking dragon heads, if youre at that play with overall shape language, you know pointy means dangerous round means friendly square means solid stuff like that, and use that in the dragon to push what you want it to look like, study lizards and crocs like a mad man they can really help you get a foundation you can morph to make some pretty awesome things, i want to see more dont be lazy dude! scan those figures or atleast your faves hahaha i want more goodies

[kingkostas]

lovely mate!!! The dragon sketches are great, both in lines and color. Keep up!!!

[snatti]

Vantar pa update^^, tryck pa stenhort sa du far du ihop grymma grejjer att visa runt in London

[DefiledVisions]

Baconstrap, Nim, Ezekrialase, Kingkostas - Thank you kindly everyone

Odayga - Yo! Good to see you things are a bit challenging right now but I see it as a great opportunity of learning how to prioritize and find what I really want to do. I hope life treats you kindly and that you get to keep on doing those awesome creatures of yours! Thanks.

LionheartGFX - Damn, you got me! Being lazy is no excuse. You're right about the shape language. I have realized that my language is very limited. I haven't done studies from life for a really long time and I can really feel how my imaginary work is repeating itself because of this. I guess I'll have to do something about it! Thanks for the words

Snatti - Tack för att du tittade förbi! du har rätt! får satsa stenhårt på att få ihop något att visa tills dess!





Hey, thanks for dropping by. Sorry for not being around. I honestly don't know what I have been doing lately. I entered the new year of 2013 with high ambitions but also with an irresponsible and immature way of looking at things. I'm a lot like a little kid who thinks too highly of himself and his ability to get things done. Almost expecting things to solve themselves in an instant without realizing how many steps I have to take and how dedicated I have to be to get there. Because of this, things get "difficult" for me and I start running.

I forget that I am an adult. I am capable and able to take responsibility for myself, and I am also resourceful and able to make good decisions regarding my life - even if they are tough and hard to make decisions. Some of my fears and reactions are rooted in wounds from childhood, which is ok, however those emotional states are no longer true for where I am today. I have come far, but it's still an every-day challenge to be in enough clarity to chose wiser.

Honestly, all I can do is accept that I haven't been making the right decisions for the start of this year. Sure, I started drawing again, but for what purpose? I didn't do it with heart and I didn't do it with responsibility. I also neglect my needs. I don't take care of my body. I don't give it regular excersize and I don't strengthen my muscles. I know I will suffer in the future because of it. But I take pride in my youth instead of listening to what I need. Foolish.

I'm glad life keeps pushing me forward. Someone or something wants me to grow inwards instead of outwards. I choose to see purpose in all of it. I spent the last few weeks going through my recent decisions and really going down to the bottom of what I want and what I need. I realized I spend most of my time doing what I don't really enjoy doing, or what I don't really need to be doing at all. Where as, there are a lot of things I really would like to be doing in my life, and even a small time every day would be enough to make myself feel much better, yet I don't.

I have had some change of perspective and priorities. I want to be here drawing and painting again. And I want to be loving it with all of my heart, but first some other things need to fall into place. I also want to build a strong body so I won't suffer from arm and back pains. I want to spend more time in nature and meditating so I can find clarity and security within myself. With regular excersize and meditation my anxiety-levels will drop and I will be able to sleep. I will also be able to be alert to what life has to offer and be more assertive. Lastly, I want to honor my inner child with moments of being and play each day.

This is building a core stability within myself. Maslow makes a good point. If we don't get our most fundamental needs met we won't have a solid foundation to build our life upon, and that's what I want to have - a solid foundation. Almost all of my physiological needs are out of balance so that's where I have to turn my attention first. I'm pretty sure things will quite quickly fall into place after that.

With that said, I'll be back soon, with a can of WhoopAss! for ya'll. (with whoopass I mean art ofcourse!)

[NickyBeats]

hey man, just wanted to say that your not alone. we all get complacent. even those people who you assume must be robots because they post amazing things all the time, and they are headed in a great direction in life, yes... even those people have times like this. but what you wrote, its good - stick to it. i am the biggest procrastinator in the world. i know i have lots of really important things to get done (excercise and sleeping right is just the tip of the iceberg) and yet i constantly will put them off out of laziness. i get too comfortable, or i just use my current position as an excuse. (poor college student, no free time, crappy living conditions...etc) but even with all of those things against me, thats no excuse to say "ill just do it later." i am very slowly getting better with this, and for me, what works is ill pick at least one big thing to do a day on top of all my other responsibilities. something that i have been putting off forever... and ill just sit down and do it. no distractions. no facebook. no music. no phone. just do it in one sitting. and i am always shocked at how quickly i can get things done that way. but that feeling you get after you do that thing you have been putting off, like excercising for instance, gives you a huge boost when your done. you feel really good about yourself, and i always try to remember that feeling the next time i am ready to put something off until later. just do it. think about it later. but anyways, sorry for the rant haha i am in the same boat i think. keep your head up. stay positive. and remember that everyone goes through this same thing, its a learning experience. but it will make you a stronger and better person for having come up against this wall, and smashing through it.

[TNiznet]

It is still early and will always be Murli, be happy with yourself and know how awesome you are. I know you better come back with some whoopass otherwise I might have to WHOOP ASS! I'm here if you need me bud.

[MightCrawler]

I enjoy reading posts like this last one, thanks for sharing your thoughts. I hope things works out for you my friend =)

[DefiledVisions]

NickyBeats - Thanks for your post man. I really appreciate it. I recognize myself in a lot of what you write. Right now I'm learning to do just what you're talking about, focusing on one thing at the time and not distracting myself with 5 other things. Surprisingly I get things done! Best of luck to you with your process!

TNiznet - Thanks man, you're right. I have to be happy with myself. That means showing myself appreciation and doing good things for me. Every day I try to do gestures to myself that let me know that I am valuable and competent. If I start neglecting basic things such as keeping a clean room and relaxing I'm indirectly telling myself that I am not good enough to take care of myself. Good luck with the art academy!

Mightcrawler - Thank you for dropping by my friend I appreciate it. They will work out.





Hey everyone, things are falling into place. I do daily meditations and I write lists of what I need to do etc. And amazingly, my motivation and will to draw and paint returns! It's an amazing feeling. Maybe I'll write some more about it, but right now I'm too tired. Here's some art.

[Ludic]

Ooh, wonderful textures!

[kingkostas]

Once again thanks for sharing thoughts and experiences mate . These new ones are very interesting, good texture to add details and solid forms.
I am glad to hear you are finding your motivation, keep enjoying

[DefiledVisions]

Ludic - thanks man!

Kingkostas - Thank you! I'm trying to figure out how to build a piece and add texture. Just enjoying and playing at the moment that's what I have been missing. The fun of playing.





I've been painting traditionally a lot lately. First is a selfportrait in oils, haven't done a selfportrait in more than 2 years. Very challenging but also very fun! I definitely need to do more studies in oils because I learn so damn much! I can really feel how I learn things that are hard to get in digital painting. Secondly is a wall-painting I started working on yesterday and finished today. It's in acrylics. To the right you see a little sketch it was based on. I'm amazed that I managed to get the proportions so correct. No projection on wall, just eye-measuring lots of fun!

take care!

[Veshkau]

Great stuff, loving the traditional pieces

[Baconstrap]

Oh what a cute little boy on that selfportrait :]
Vägg bilden e mycket smaskig i sina färger, gillade dock den po skissen mer när den inte hade nogon munn.

Stay bacon.

[Baconstrap]

Oh what a cute little boy on that selfportrait :]
Vägg bilden e mycket smaskig i sina färger, gillade dock den po skissen mer när den inte hade nogon munn.

Stay bacon.

[DefiledVisions]

Veshkau - Thanks man! glad to hear

Baconstrap - hahah I hear he is too sexy for his shirt Tackar min vän, yeah håller med dig. Munnen var en liten random detalj jag la till i slutet. Det hade känts bättre utan! stay bacon






Thanks for dropping by Here's some more traditional work. These are acrylics on cut-out masonite board. Did them last year but never got to taking pictures. The walking mini-totoro lost a foot sorry little buddy.. anyways. Thanks for dropping by!

[Baconstrap]

Är detta de legedariska djuren jag har hört så mycket om? Om det nu skulle vara dem so blef jag mycket glad(o förvånad) av hur mycke glädje som finns i dem. Tack.

[rumpenstiltzkin]

hey! love the cutout animals and totoro
also really want to give you big thanks and love for the encouraging and helpful words in my SB

och hoppas allt är bra själv med motivationen och ritandet!

[Sillirien]

You are awesome! I'm so glad that you're back(i know that you are back for some time but it's really hard to stop and write comment for me... mostly because i rush to draw every time after checking CA.org )
always waiting for your inspiring updates!

[Dicemarine]

Wow, this is a awesome sketchbook you got here, so much variation experimenting, very inspiring Looking forward to see what what new things you will post. =)

[Pigeonkill]

Fun animal panels

[DefiledVisions]

Baconstrap - Indeed it is! Tack så mycket jag hade väldigt roligt när jag gjorde dem och de sprider mycket glädje där de står i bildhuset.

Rumpenstiltzkin - Glad you like 'em! You're welcome. I know how it is to work through the heavier things in life so I felt I could share some of what I've learned. I hope things are better and I'm glad you dropped by! Det är bättre med mig. Motivationen kommer tillbaka

Sillirien - Hahah, thanks for giving me some of your important drawing time! D: It makes me glad to hear. Hopefully they'll be more frequent now!

Dicemarine - Thank you kindly!

Pigeonkill - Thanks!



Some quick studies before bed. I'm working on this week's COW and want some feline/lion traits into it, but realized I don't know much about lions. So here goes! See you around.

[Jarrad]

Thank you so much for sharing that post about perspective one page back. It really makes me want to go back and work on it some more.. Do you have Kim Jung-Gi's sketchbooks? If not, I strongly suggest getting them. They are well worth the price! Also, those paintings on those boards are AWESOME. I've wanted to do something like that and leave it somewhere in a city but I'd like to wait until I can make something nice to look at..

[DefiledVisions]

Jarrad - Thank you! makes me glad to hear. No, I mailed them about the books but they were too expensive for me to buy at the time. Trying to save as much money as possible for summer and the CA workshop in London. I can imagine they're worth the price! *IT'S SO FLUFFY IM GONNA DIIE!* you should totally try doing something similar on board some day. Lots of fun I guarantee!





Hey guys, some sketches for this week's COW. "Falkor the luck dragon" Letz get it done!

Life is interesting right now. I'm in a situation where I'm going against a lot of very fundamental fears and making myself uncomfortably vulnerable. And hey.. I'm still standing. Can't even use "what if I'll die" as an excuse any more.. (lol, just joking. But the reality of it is that some of these things are deadly scary for me even if they're completely harmless). I'm learning so much about myself right now. A lot of grief finding its way to me as well.. it's a relief to let go of some of it. I actually feel grief for not being able to enjoy life and just be chill. I have some heavy mental barriers blocking me from enjoying the 'cool' life. But damn, I don't care anymore. Don't need those barriers. They have served their purpose. I want to enjoy life and live it! I want to have fun!

Inner peace and clarity to you all. Laters!

[xinranliu]

Mmm the skull studies are tasty! Peace and positive vibes to you too!

[nim]

nice! lionish dragon sounds cool! man I never have the patience for much research. this is inspiring good luck!

[DefiledVisions]

xinranliu - Thank you kindly!

Nim - Thanks man! glad to see you I normaly don't so much research either but I thought I'd give it a try.




Hey guys, thanks for dropping by! been doing some more work on this Creature of the Week topic. I've found a design I really like and will play around with it. Here I've been fleshing out some basic colors. I painted them on my school computer so they're a bit desaturated. See you around!