I want my Love for Drawing back!

[Yoshi89]

Hello!

im here because i got the feeling that i lost my love to Draw.

I started to Draw when i was 9, because i loved Final Fantasy 8 Cutscenes, and that all i ever wanted to do with my life. It made me Proud to know this so early in Life.

But on the way from Drawing from Pictures/Photos i got frustrated by drawing from my Imagination and began to draw less and less.
That is mostly because:
If i sit down to draw from a Photo i just tell myself "i can do that anyway"
If i sit down to draw from Imagniation i tell myself: " i cant do that anyway"

I had a lot distraction over the past last years that kept me from going on, but whenever i found a reason to Draw again, it really fullfilled me and almost made me happy enought to cry because it felt like getting something back that i lost.

Right now all i need is a Battlestrategy.

Im over with Manga and Comic Drawings, thats not my style. Iam no Artist to draw in Motion or color, i love Concept Arts and Portrait sketches like "DaVincis Skuriel Heads" if someone knows that.

Whats the best way for me to improve that way? I think what i need right now is some kind of Manual what i have to draw, to improve in what i wanna be able to draw. If you think drawing Anatomie or Portraits for 10000 Times will help me to become a Concept Artist, to Improve my skills in Drawing my own Characters from Imagination in the Future - i will gladly do so.

Edit: Thinking about it - i guess all i need is some "Gurantee" that i wont waste my Time by doing what i know i have to do. Some Words of Advice or Reinsurance would help me greatly. I lost a lot Time by "doing my A-lvl" and "learning 3D Software", now im 22 and nowhere where i wanted to be.


Ps: The File Attached is not my Work. Its an example of the Kind of Artwork that i love. The Kind if wanna be able to draw.

I Choose Concept Art for another reason, thats because i wanna be a 3D Animator and give Life to my Concepts. But First comes the Drawing!

[SmallPoly]

Well, first things first - show us some of your work so we can get an idea of your current level. Post some things you draw from your imagination and some you draw from observation, and we'll point you in the right direction.

Ps: The File Attached is not my Work. Its an example of the Kind of Artwork that i love. The Kind if wanna be able to draw.

And here I was about to berate you for snagging some Diablo 3 concept art and trying to pass it off as your own.

[Sizzle]

This may help you on your way. Take a sit for a little while and watch these.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xcmPl...A8576645DDDA55

[phobetors-journal]

hmmm reading your thread was like hearing many of my own thoughts that i once had and they were pretty present in my head.

what do you do as a job or do you study? do you paint and draw in your freetime?
what i mean is: if you have thoughts like:
"Why should i draw or paint now, if the outcome will be shitty anyway, as long as i draw from imagination."
or
"why should i waste my time reproducing and draw from reference if I already know that i can do it?"

...Then I think your relationship to drawing is kinda damaged. Mine was damaged too until last summer.
But compare the feel that your job and the usual life that most people live would give you to the feel that you had doing good drawings.
i think that should be the best proof for the urgency, that you should draw and paint all day long.

i am not someone to teach or mentor you because i still do have lots to learn myself. i still suck at so many things in painting and drawing.
but i found my love for drawing back and i feel how it does help me progressing technically and emotionally.
look through the internet and you will find so many people, so many great artists who all tell us, that the only thing that made them what they are was merely the "keeping doing it"-thing. this persistence and the mass of work. i mean if you scroll through algenpflegers sketchbook. Compare the first pages to the last ones.... the differences are so huuuuuge! sometimes hard to believe that these drawings and sketches came all of one and the same person.

if i think of people at yours and my stage in times before the internet.... i am pretty sure that they did not have these indications and hints that it might only be hard work that could make them real fuckking good artists. but the one's that did invest all their time into painting WITH THE POSSIBILITY THAT IT MIGHT BE WASTED TIME did keep on doin it though... because there was i possibility that it might bring them where they wanted to be.
we have such an advantage compared to the people in these times! we have the evidence!....we should use it!!!

one of the most important lessons that i learned in my life was the wrong but important decision that i made.
i choose to do that usual kind of job. that job that you dont really like and that job you are really good at but the outcome of what you do does not interest you.
i mean i go to work everyday and earn good money. and this job that i dont care about did cost me so much time already... there were weeks and months that i worked monday-sunday, 14h a day. there were times in which i got up in the morning not having time for breakfast and came back late in the night. and i did that for my JOB.
this experience of spending so much valuable time in a thing that you dont care about made me realise that i should rather start change something in my relationship to work and to my hobby. what if i had spent all that time into painting?

now i draw a lot more since 3 months now. i study anatomy for what its worth and i keep on doin it. and may it eventually be for nothing but i have fun doing it. and the more you do it, the more you get dragged into the hurricane's eye of having so much joy! i feel the progress that i do, every thought that i have is dadicated to my ideas and drawing, what i can do, what i can learn, what i could be able to do in the future if i just keep on drawing.

the posssibility of someday being able to paint for a living... this little hope that i have is worth the effort. i should try everything i can if it might help me to get rid of that boring kind of work that i do for a living now. if i had spent all that time that i lost during job-time into painting i would much better today already. at least i know that it would not have made me any worse..... so the earlier i start to do so, the better!

some years ago i always painted in order to publish it on the internet to earn compliments and good words.
i felt the urge to be acknowledged for my drawings. what a joke!!!!!!
I did not post anything since almost a year now. because its not the reason why i paint.
the reason why i started to paint was that i had fun doing it. and that should be the reason why i want to paint today.

and as soon as i found the full joy back and feel content about my works i will start posting again. but not to earn good words but to share the joy!


i hope that my words can help you a little. if not... i dunno

but here another motivating speech:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ikAb-NYkseI

get your ass up and draw and dare you to do it without having fun!

over and out