so idk what going on, i think im having a melt down, ive been drained and with no energy these days.
but my point is. is art worth it?
its way fucking better than having a "office" job
there are so many artists, what diference can i make?
the sacrifice of learning
i mean, i think i can get to an artist level, but i also dont feel like im gonna be on the "top" talented artist you know?
i have the felling that if i give up ill regret it tons in the future. but i also want to go out and drink everyday, worry about sillly stuff and do the "normal" teenager things.
not to mention how alone i feel, no one around me likes art. ive met a few people over the internet, but its not the same thing.
i would just really fucking love to go to a coffe place with a friend and just sketch, talk about mullins and bobby chiu.
maybe i should take a break?
idk today i feel like resting for a week.
but at the same time, if i realy want to learn art, its a lost of time.
i mean, i see janas and hannes sketchbook, and it just seems so awesome how they did stuff together shared and learned with each other.
not to say how much of a BEAST jana is, looking trough her stuff today its super inspirational, but at the same time i feel like im not creative and talented enough to ever do that
nah, f me, im lost
opinions on this rant?!?