Hey, Amarok. I gotta tell you.. You totally made my day back when I first read your comment. Thanks, man. I honestly have no idea, what I'm doing half the time I'm studying and the other half is probably pretty much just my "sense of humor". So I'm glad it makes sense to someone at least.
pupuska: Yeah, I still need me some serious code-cracking on light/shadow part, 'coz I get much too timid when drawing directional light. So I usually just avoid it altogether. :3 But yeah. You read me like an open book. Haha. You got me.
I've been in a really bad place this past month. In fact, I didn't pick up my pen this whole time since my last post here. I was afraid of it. I was so afraid to fail and so convinced at how much I suck and how I'm never going to get better, that I couldn't get myself to draw anything, not even a straight line.
I'm overwhelmed by everything I still have to learn, demotivated by both, the lack of feedback and my dissatisfaction with every piece I've done up to this point. I haven't got a clue what to do or how/where to even begin doing a portfolio, since I think it would be a high time to have something to show. But naaaaaaw, everything I do sucks, which tells me I need to study more and it's like a friggin vicious circle. I'd like to say that I just needed a break and that I intentionally didn't touch my drawing tools, but I'd be lying. I was crawled up in my dark hole of a room the whole time. Watching movies, reading comics and wasting my (precious) time.
WIP of something meaningless. Let's just say I wanted to draw a renaissance outfit and clouds. Clouds are so much fun. Dark clouds are so much fun. Heavy, dark storm clouds are so much fun.