beginning of a long way... (mild nudity)

[shiNIN]

Well life got a little busier lately, I'm living in my own room now, it's unfinished and a bit messy but much more empty... And right now, filled with sunshine!!! I have sunshine after all those dark times and I have SPAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACE as well It isn't a huge room but it isn't a tiny either, well it's under the roof, I have very low walls as well, it's fun.
I will paint when the moisture level won't be this extremely high.

Replies will come later, I'm in a hurry, we need go and buy apples. I need a lot of fresh fruit these days, it's a good sign I think.

I didn't want to upload stuff until I start to draw again and actually create something... But it didn't happen. Whatever, here's some not very fresh stuff.
I copied some copies from my older sbs... I like to do that sometimes. So there's nothing new except when I got bored with copying from memory (this time I drew stuff multiple times! I always new I need to do that but now I did) and made changes



I have some figures from the FORCE book, I'm reading it again, but they aren't good yet.

Digital? Not much. The crappy figure is my own, it was quick at least.

[LtPlissken]

The day has come, the time has come, I am so happy about your
update, and the positive signs of your creative emotionality. I see
you doing secret experimental laboratory things in your hidden new
room. Deep mystified rose flower fumes in the air, your ancient magic
skills cracking up the carapace of the last surviving snail. I saw Popeye
in the mix above there, you did an excellent job on him and on the other
sketches too. Be aware of too much moisture, cause when the value is
real high, zombies will arrive. This is an euphoric moment, and
I think that we should all celebrate together.

[untier]

Hi, life-details fan Shinin. You're so lovely~

LtPlissken: No, zombies are not welcome absolutely... I remember they would mess up everything of a new house...

[Lightship69]

Hi there!! missed you! where have you been?

There is some good pencil work in there my mate, some of those faces have a lot of potential, but I know you and you have already decided that they are all fit for the garbage and nothing else. I like them and would love to see some more please and especially some photos of the woods if you can get them. I have a wood just down the road from me and I will do you a swap I will photograph my woods if you do yours and we will see if we have anything worth drawing between us ...... Yes??

all the best to you, glad you are posting again I hate it when you get busy and stop for a while ..... because I am just a big softy! he he he

[n1frit]

Glad you move on to more comfortable place! Hope it will be good for your expression) Keep it up!

[Satu]

Uuh such a long time since I commented here I think.
I've been such a terrible lazy-ass. Good to hear things are going well.
Nice faces in post 1232. Hope to see you update more of them soon!

[lionheartGFX]

its always good to revamp old drawings it shows your progress and how much better you are to visually tell something, and about the creativity part, start small and dont be discouraged if you dont make gigantic complicated things, maybe do a character or a representation of yourself then practice that character until you can draw him in any pose thinkable its fun and it sticks, its all about practice man, you got a great line its time to use it! cant wait to see moer from you!

cheers!

[LtPlissken]

I have a tight feeling that you are preparing something
big and beautiful for Christmas.

[AllyAlbon]

Hey ShiNIN - you should be drawereringing!

[shiNIN]

This post has nothing to do with art so don't waste your time to read it unless you are quite sure you want it for some reason.

I really don't have any excuse to write here. I didn't do anything vaguely related to drawing, after all. I don't know what happened to me though the attack of mold zombies drove me into corner... My stress level became quite high and my nicer moments were packed with baking cookie, practicing Christmas songs (it's hard when you are supposed to sing something you don't know, there's no music sheet but 2 more people singing alt and the sopranos are too distracting), searching for a proper desk (I have it now, yay), a little origami (I need to make lampshades), I watched my BF to play the new Alice game, awwww it's so inspiring And I've read the cartoon 'Preacher', not all of it, it's too much and gets boring. I get drawing ideas all the time but it isn't enough.

Now I go to the End of The World Festival in the capital, there will be a one album band called Fuck Off System there. I like their songs, the one about suicide never fails to cheer me up I will wear my favourite t-shirt that obviously has skulls on it. And barbed wire. It's a cute one.

We just bought a really efficient dehumidifier and the mess in the house is smaller so I'm sure I will be able to focus on things already. The past weeks were very bad, I screamed too much. I'm somewhat of a short tempered one but I can be quite calm for a long time if nothing too bad happens. But the remodeling of the house and the over 80% humidity had its toll on me. It's awful to wake up when the air is this bad. My nerves are sturdy but I really can lost it if things wander way too far from ideal. It's good I come back safely and quickly. It would take a damn lot to drive me really crazy.
But this is my sb not my non-existent psychiatrist so I stop now.

Replies, maybe?
Lightship: I wanted to _draw_ my house. You know, in silly little highly stylized illustrative expressive style. It would help to show how I feel, the mere visuals irl can't show that. Oh and of course, I want to paint my house. There will be skulls everywhere in my room, murals and figures in the personal rooms... I will get a cute hell on my ceiling and my boyfriend wants a pink magical girl god shooting bright arrows from her rosebud adorned bow. Tastes differ
Our woods? I'll search for some photos, we definitely have some and our house is in some of them, it's good to be on top of a hill. Those will be Alvaro's photos, I personally shoot clouds. He can't understand how excited I can get over a cloud no different from the others, to him at least. But that's a pretty and unique cloud to me

Black Spot: I know there's much wisdom in what you say but I don't feel I'm good enough to use masterworks well Even if there's an explanation by another artist... This is all too advanced for me and my immediate goal is usually just drawing something, no matter what and how but doing it. Good advices are wasted on me till I manage to be active But I will play with real life drawings, even I can see things that are totally in front of my eyes, in 3d and very high resolution... Whenever I do a master study, I feel I quickly slip into brainless copying and it's no good.

Satu(peikko): If you are a lazy-ass, I don't even want to imagine what I am.

lionheartGFX: Thank you for your words, they are encouraging, sometimes I can think clear like that myself (around bed time, usually) but the next day the world is foggy again. But probably I shouldn't think, just draw and everything falls into piece. Thanks.

Plissken: Erm, sorry... I... I'll see what I can possibly do... My best chance is to drink enough to drown my inner critic and playfully do something (and post it immediately)! I barely touched alcohol in the last months and it was a tiny bit wine. Weak stuff.

I didn't reply to everyone but I thank you all for your support, I'm really ashamed I don't give anything but the usual blurb in return.
I'll visit your SBs when I can. I'm so blocked I don't even visit Critique Center.

It's so tempting to delete this post, I'm sorry if I don't do it in the end.

Some cookies for you, not quite good focus and 'unrealistic but I decided to keep it' colors (there was no natural light, it sometimes works), I didn't work with the raw version but the jpeg produced by the camera:

Not drawing but at least my hands did them. With cookie cutters. It would be way more creative to cut the pieces all by myself...

[LtPlissken]

I saw you. Through the kitchen window.
Preparing your cakes.

[shiNIN]

Oh a month passed again... I was inactive then checked if there's an interesting looking new group on Tegaki E. I needed motivation and fun.
Rainbow Veins Academy (a school for color gijinkas on a cloud) got revived for the second time and it's busier than ever!

Brace yourselves: Tegaki E stuff will follow, not just now but even next time.
It's amazing, I draw again, I draw more and with more courage, in a better mood and whatnot. It's so cool, now I need to study because I feel I just running around at high speed within my cell of limited knowledge.









So I did. Well it was just doodling (using a ref in the beginning) before bedtime, TE colors are PITA and I couldn't focus. But I was somewhat motivated and got lucky. Well I call this as a not bad start. I totally must finish it in PS.



But my wavering quality is shocking.

[Ramalooke]

heeeey, good to see you updating with some cool stuff it's about time i would say=D

[Satu]

Wuhuu, she is back!
What/who is this Tegaki E? Good to hear that you are drawing again and most of all enjoying of it again!
Good looking faces. I think the skin tones look pretty good on them. Keep updating!

[untier]

Ah, ShiNIN, your new stuffs are lovely! Don't be so playful, use your will power to set aside more time for your arts~

Wuhuu, she is back!
What/who is this Tegaki E?

I recognized Tegaki E inspired by her information too. Just try it yourself. Warning: Addicting! For instance, ook at her...

[shiNIN]

I'm very lazy today so I will just upload what I already did from my Tegaki E stuff a few days ago.
Besides, replies.

Ramalooke: Yeah... And I should get serious too. Drawing alone was very nice and an eye opener but I need action...

Satu: Thanks. Really? One thing I so want to get better at is colors and it's the most problematic on Tegaki E because I can't mix colors there. I just grab colors and hope they won't be too bad...
Tegaki E was originally a bunch of drawn blogs I guess... But creative kids made it much more awesome. It's a site where the blog posts are big images and comments are little images You use a flash program and the result is saved as a .png file. There are groups and roleplaying, it can be quite fun and inspiring. The drawing tools are quite limited but it's not so bad I guess. I like to do sketches there more than in Photoshop.

untier: Being not so playful is the worst advice I can get. I need to have fun nearly all the time, it's what a hedonist is about. Tegaki E made me draw because it gave me motivation. The limitations do good. I'm far from being addicted, the group I'm currently in isn't busy anymore so I stopped drawing, of course, outside Tegaki E as well. Now I'm not playful, I'm not quite blocked but almost totally inactive again. I know what I should do, I have courage since I went back on TE... I just have horrible time management and a bit too low energy level nowadays. It's a pity.

But it seems I remember a lot from the times when I studied anatomy (and I drew way too little while doing so). I just need draw to have a deeper understanding/better memory access and use that knowledge.


I changed my avatar later. Now it's better than either of this two versions but I wish to polish it more.


The last request isn't here because it's ugly. I hate when my fails are so bad

[shiNIN]

It's not my day either, at least I put some TE stuff together. IDK why. I couldn't resist. My day was hopeless anyway.


The end is a start of another bunch where I was brave enough to draw more than a face. It may be not apparent but my courage, hand drawing skills and speed leveled up... But I won't include those this time.

Oh and I didn't finish my new TE entry, I just stopped doing it, no patience/energy. It's here (I actually tried to figure out where the muscles are, it was fun but tiring):

[Ramalooke]

puuurffect. love the saturated colors and this chibi style of yours ;3

[Lightship69]

Looking Good babes!!

not much to say at the moment crit wise as its just a flying visit.

best wishes to you and your BF, and give him what he wants and do the pink Girl God with a bow thing on the roof, you can do skulls on the walls, you see walls more often anyway!! lol

stay well and all the best to you.

[untier]

Hi, dear shiNiN! I'm expecting that you'll update more finished works in the last style in #1246, which is cool, sexy and heavenly! The cute style in the #1247 is also much appreciated~But where is the follow-up? What have lazy you been doing lately? Are you composing a story line?

[LtPlissken]

Yes, we are all expecting some big explosion and update from you in the near future.